No matter what you do and how much you try to protect your baby from getting sick or feeling unwell, you really cannot protect them from everything. The first time their temperature goes up so does your anxiety and anything else going on around you becomes a blur and you just focus on your toasty little one hoping they just get better miraculously.
Baby T had her first fever over the weekend. It was narrowed down to a teething fever from her two top front teeth. Now, trust me, I looked online and I know they say there’s no such thing as teething fevers and that there has to be some other underlying cause. But, she had no other symptoms (other than being a clingy hot mess) and I did my due diligence and took her to the Dr after two days of consistent fever. He found no other underlying causes and agreed it must be a teething fever. I’m not a Dr so if you’re reading this and your baby has a fever you should also do your own due diligence before narrowing it down to a teething fever.
What I’m trying to get at with this is when your baby gets sick or has a fever for the first time it is downright terrifying. We checked her temperature constantly and did everything we could to make her feel better. The whole time you’re trying to be calm and soothe her but on the inside it feels like you’re going to break into pieces. Before having a baby, I of course knew that at some point being a parent your kid is going to get sick and I thought “it’s okay, I can handle it”. But in reality it actually destroys you and you wonder how you ever decided to do this to yourself in the first place. That being said, obviously I love Baby T and would never change a thing, it’s just when they’re sick you feel so helpless and sick to your stomach which seems like a funny mix of emotions to willingly sign up for. But you also sign up for the rewarding feeling of your baby clinging to you for a hug when she needs you, the way her smile and laugh lights up your world and watching her learn new things everyday which I would say does outweigh the difficult times.
The last two days Baby T has probably cried more than she has her entire life and refused to be put down, like ever. But as a mom you have this little piece inside you that just pushes through and gives her all the cuddles and attention she needs. Then there are little glimpses of hope that she’s getting better like she smiles or she finally crawls around the floor by herself to play. Babies are tough little things, and I don’t know about you, but when I’m sick rest and snuggles in bed all day are the best medicine. Also children’s Tylenol.
So if this is also you, and you feel like you’re going to start crying as loud as your baby soon because you wish you could just make them better and take away their discomfort and pain, hang in there. Take a breath, take a break and take a nap (while your baby is properly supervised by someone else or also napping).