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I Don’t Know What I’m Doing… and Other Things a Mother Thinks

I know I’ve only been a mother for ten months and I’ve got a long way to go and plenty more lessons to learn, but it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done (yes, including labour). Of course, it’s incredibly rewarding and Baby T makes me smile more than anything, but I think it’s important to put all the feels out there for everyone. What could be more interesting than my thoughts and feelings? 

A few times, specifically when Baby T is refusing to nap, go to bed, or up in the middle of the night, my husband has turned to me and said “what should we do?” First off, pat on the back to him for saying “we” in that sentence. He’s a smart man. Second, my answer is always “I have no idea”. The truth is, when you’re a new mom you think you have an idea of what to expect. You’ve seen your nieces/nephews and other family babies through good times and bad and read enough books and watched enough tv shows to have an idea of the lack of sleep and stress coming your way. NEWS FLASH! Even if you have a pretty chill easy baby like I did, you still have no idea. You’ve forgotten your body is raging with hormones, you decided to skip the section in the book about breastfeeding figuring you’ll have time to learn about it later, and you also missed the lesson at the hospital learning how to change a diaper that Dad got because you were too busy sleeping. There’s a lot of times I thought to myself “I don’t even know what I’m doing” but Baby T is still alive and thriving so I must not be doing that bad. Being a mom is kind of a guessing game. Baby T has changed so much and her needs and wants change all the time so I’ve learned to just roll with it and accept the fact that I may never know what I’m doing. 

Here’s a list of a few other thoughts I’ve had that hopefully, some people can relate to: 

“Oh good, she finally pooped!”

“Did I brush my teeth today?” 

“I need a drink.” 

“I hope her Nana is free tomorrow.” 

“Maybe I should start drinking coffee.” 

“She only slept for that long?” 

“She’s still sleeping??” 

“I wish she liked watching movies.” 

“When will Dad be home?” 

“I need a drink.” 

“Is that enough food for her?” 

“Will she be warm/cool enough?” 

“I love her so much.” 

“I need a drink.” 

If you can’t relate to even one of those I think you’re following the wrong blog and should just move along.

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